I worked from 8 am Thursday until around 2 pm Friday. I was, and still am to a degree, exhausted.
In the wee hours of Friday morning I was looking out the window of the office at the cold snowy parking lot, and I was hit with an overwhelming urge to go outside and have a cigarette. It was so powerful that I can still feel it a little.
If I could have had one without repercussion I would have done it. I know I would have.
But repercussions are why we quit smoking in the first place so it’s a silly idea. I am mad at myself that I am still thinking about it and wanting to do it (I am not going to), but I suppose it is what it is. Nothing about getting mad at myself will change wanting to smoke.
What kept me from smoking? Nothing really. Sometimes all that stands between us and not smoking is some vague idea that throwing away a streak is a bad idea.
Nathan,
I’ve never smoked, but I think what you said can apply to just about any vice. Thanks for sharing that last line, especially.
Huh… Well done buddy. That’s a streak worth keeping. Even if it’s not totally apparent what the repercussions would have been. Good stuff.
Nathan, I totally get it. I’ve said the same, that at certain moments if I could smoke without consequences, I surely would. Exactly as you said, the consequences are the exact reason not to cave. I wouldn’t be too mad at yourself wanting to smoke because that’s pretty normal. Not doing is what’s relatively new, so I’d just be proud!
When we were in the car on Thursday night going 100 miles an hour on our way to the colo I was wondering how you manage to not smoke during very stressful times. I thought it’d be better not to ask at that moment. Now I have my answer :)
Hey, I wanted to try out the TLC code but the link on the code page seems to be broken.
Thanks
mac guide. That is very odd, the file referenced is no longer in that directory.
I haven’t looked at that code in a while and am a little apprehensive about linking to an earlier release.
Let me look into it.
The code repository on this site is quite shoddy. I demand a full refund!
You hung on in a tough spot Nate. That’s shows some real quality character, imho.