Smoking with Sophocles
This morning about an hour after I woke up, I got the most crushing craving I have had in a long time. I was going out the door to get in my car, and it rolled over me like bad weather. It sucked mostly because I have been feeling pretty good lately. Things have been really good in my private life, and because of that not only is there always no reason to smoke, I have LESS of a reason to smoke. I think that made it worse. Just the realization that I was doing so well and got caught off guard by the craving.
To make matters worse I forgot to take my pill last night, AND this morning. Mi vida loca. Now, according to others the half life for Chantix is crazy long so I still have a ton of it in my system. I am not concerned. There is no way I would smoke. It’s not even an option. It’s just a bummer.
“The keenest sorrow is to recognize ourselves as the sole cause of all our adversities.” ~ Sophocles
Crazy enough, it’s the times when I am feeling the best and actually happy that I seem to have more of the craving type feelings creep up - almost like things are going so well that it would be a nice way to add to it for celebration or something. Like you said, just knowing that you just aren’t going to smoke no matter what crazy things cross through the mind is what counts.
Here here Sophicles! I am half-irritated at every epiphany only to realize I’ve caused all my own issues. Good thing I am also the only one with the power to change myself.
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Tracee Sioux
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